deita-o ao chão...

Is starting hard?

You know it is....

I don't know what you do when you start, but I clean my desk, I make a lot of stupid appointments that I make sound important. 

Avoidance, delay, denial.

I am always scared that I'm not going to know what to do... It's a terrifying moment...

And then, when I start, I am always amazed. So that wasn't so bad...

guardei-o para sempre... e só hoje, porque o deixei cair... porque se partiu, finalmente vi o que era.